Anxiety In Pregnancy After Loss | First Trimester


now I’m going to pray for what is it god
grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change the courage to
change the things I can and the wisdom the wisdom to know the difference so I’m
praying for strength right now Hi! thanks for clicking on Simply Tanika
I am Tanika if you are new here welcome hit that subscribe button let’s hang out
a while if you are returning welcome back what’s up fertility fam we got to
do what let’s get those babies ladies what’s up
fertility BAM good morning it is Friday December 28th it’s the last Friday of
the year I can’t believe it where is either going alright I hope you are well
this is my first time back since God I think since announcing the pregnancy
yeah because then I just want to know um vlogmas I was tired so hi I missed you
guys I mean I saw you move augments but I’m just talking to you guys about
conception about AJ so I’m back and welcome to all the new people thank you
so much not only have you subscribed and you’ve gone back and watched some of the
old videos which is awesome so thank you for that as always for those of you who
oh yes please remember to subscribe to please consider subscribing hey buddy
let’s hang out alright I am in bathroom AVI and I’m getting ready to go down to
Colombia I’m going to get my work done so I haven’t been since before Christmas
just to reduce my own anxiety they hadn’t moved it to three days and then I
just said I would come the following week because I didn’t I just wanted to
enjoy Christmas and everything would be okay and not have anything you know the
back of my mind so I’m going to check on him today I feel the same so hopefully
everything is okay and we’ll see what’s going on I know in the lives when you
guys tell us about an ultrasound so you have to be in quadruple digits oh I
think it’s like 1,200 to 1,500 HCG in order to have anything seen No
and so we’re not quite there yet that’s been one of the concerns is the low HCG
so we’ll see what it is today but based on if it’s doubling or increasing by at
least 60% every 48 hours we’re not going to be well actually I haven’t done the
numbers in the world I don’t think we are I just I can’t keep doing the
numbers because it makes me anxious but I don’t think we’re close we’ll find out
today but yeah I’m excited to see a heartbeat and so I really want to wait
until the numbers high enough that would happen just because when I had that
miscarriage I never saw the heartbeat and I was in every other day and it was
just rolling it was every other day except when I went on Friday so it was
Monday Wednesday Friday Monday Wednesday Friday like for weeks and so yeah I’m
not gonna do that to myself so anyway Shannon and I had fun doing it
our last on Christmas Day we did one and it was like Butte I think like 800 times
which was cool that was one of our highest vlogmas so that’s about a third
of you cuz we’re at about a thousand people now so not bad
we’ll see we’ll see if we continue there’s one more which it’ll probably be
up by the time you guys see this video where I did her hair and twist and said
oh my god you’ll see that video and we’ll see how that does we’re trying to
figure out how we can do more videos together so if you guys have any ideas
well let me know down below anything you’d like to see or you know it may not
end up being on this channel maybe on another channel we’ll figure out I’m
trying not to take it on too much even though I am team too much I already have
the other channel assembly Tanika too and so we’ll see we’ll see what we end
up doing anyway I’m hot as right now I’m gonna get dressed and I’ll head over to
alright done happy Friday I’ll do well I was having an amazing day or if you’re
watching this didn’t the end I hope you had an amazing day and yeah
I’m looking forward to hanging out with you for a few minutes
touch of it hey fam all right I am almost just coming up the subway it’s
been raining which is a bit of a mess I’m late what else doesn’t you but it’s
just a blood draw so should be okay I know who I saw last night on Instagram
when he sent me a note there was some kind of big blue
something in this guy out in Queens like some electrical plan or something
something happened and people lost their power but Cheyenne was telling me this
morning but I’m gon need to get my umbrella I’m on the west side of Harlem
and Queens is on the east side of the island so I didn’t see it but she said
some people in Manhattan saw it hold on guys huh okay she said some
people in Manhattan side so I’m not sure did you guys see that on Instagram
hopefully everybody’s okay hopefully they got their power back
all right I’m winded I’ll talk to you guys when I get in there bye all right
fam I’m leaving Columbia the lady was like I stopped my blood joshi’s like I
don’t know if you’re in record I was like they usually let me but you know
what it’s fine so I’m headed back out into the rain headed to work I hope you
guys are having a great Friday so far talk to you in a little bit Bertha’s
fine so speaking yeah we do have your results so the number came back today all right thank you happy New Year to
you too Katrina thank you bye-bye yeah I don’t know I had um a
head spotting on Christmas Eve on the 24 I mean I know that’s happens to women in
IVF um there are people who have gone to the ER and have like bleeding bleeding
and yeah I don’t know I don’t know so we’ll see we’ll see yeah I have I’m going over to Blues
house tonight I gotta talk to him but so weird yeah I don’t know I don’t know all right well I need to think I need to
finish working I think I’m gonna leave early it is two o’clock now a little
after 2:00 so we’ll see it’s all very matter-of-fact for them all right I don’t have any thoughts
other than I’m rambling and I’m gonna close out now cuz I don’t think I’m
gonna come back on later today but thank you guys for your support and your well
wishes and all your love and prayers and I’ve asked always for God’s will to be
done and now I’m going to pray for what is it god grant me the strength to
accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can and
the wisdom the wisdom to know the difference so I’m praying for strength
right now all right fam I will talk to you later I
love you ladies I’m sending you all baby does please keep me in your prayers try
not to worry about me I will be okay I probably am gonna be off for a few days
just so I can collect my thoughts oh thank you for your well wishes and for
your support and yeah all right talk to you later bye you

56 Replies to “Anxiety In Pregnancy After Loss | First Trimester”

  1. Love ya. Think about u everyday. Praying for a positive outcome. πŸ™πŸ’«πŸŒˆπŸ’«πŸŒˆπŸ’«Meditate and yoga!!!

  2. Anxiety after a loss is so real. Some people who tell you to just relax or be patient don't quite understand how difficult all of the anxiousness makes it. Prayers for you and Applejack. Looking forward to the next update.πŸ’›

    *edit for spelling error.

  3. Baybay …. You got this even in the hardest times women always have strength right next doorπŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘πŸ‘‘

  4. Praying for you that Lord sustains you in peace joy and gratitude. So proud of you and encourage you in your journey! AJ hold on tight mommy loves you! And so many are praying for you!

  5. I know how you feel I had a miscarriage in August of 2018 and started my IUI journey in November of 2018. I have had 3 unsuccessful IUI's and honestly I have been so nervous to even get a positive. The PTSD you experience with a miscarriage can be crippling, when I finally get a positive God willing I know my anxiety will be overwhelming every step of the way! Continuing to keep you in prayer and we all are here for you when you when you are ready. Take care of yourself! ❀

  6. I love watching your posts. I'd appreciate if you'd make every video 15 minutes or longer. If ur making ttc videos with ur daughter then I think it ok for this channel. If not, I say don't do it… The posts on ur channel should be centered around you honey. So what does your beta hcg # of 288 mean? The number is getting higher so that's a good thing right?

  7. Wow! Making me rethink this YouTube thing. I am still keeping you in my prayers. Sending love and baby dust right back at you!

  8. Thank you for posting Tanika! I am so impressed by your sharing all and handling the pressure and comments from viewers while you have to handle what’s going on for you at this point of your journey. You do such a great job with the videos and the content that you put out. Hoping for the best for you. I’m also TTC, at 45. I’ve learned a lot from your videos, not just all the practical information but also how the process affects you. I hope I make sense. A big hug to you.

  9. Praying for strength for you tanika. Praying for direction for you. Praying for a peace that passes all understanding. But most importantly sending you all our love!!!!

  10. Hugs and kisses SisπŸ™πŸ½πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™πŸ½β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ’‹

  11. Ms.T all prayers of strength,courage and focus to you,for you…I know you will not give up..you were born into Strength (a woman)this is not over until your ready for it to be,replay all of you videos and you'll see your inner strength and endurance, your special Ms.T…..the miracle of the human body belongs to God and no other can change that, do what you can and A.J will be yours to hold,love,kiss,cradle,adore….

  12. I am so sorry Tanika πŸ˜” You literally did everything humanly possible to have a different outcome. Everything happens for a reason… Still hoping for a different outcome πŸ™πŸ» or is it too late?

  13. Hey sis stay positive and stay strong πŸ’ͺ keeping you and apple jack lifted up in prayer πŸ™πŸΏ you are a warrior and remember god would not put more on you than you can bare πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

  14. I'm so sorry Tanika. I've been dealing with this myself. Confirmed pregnancy 12/19/18 and Monday 1/21/19 at 8wks – no baby just an empty gestational sac and yolk sac (blighted ovum). I'm 45 and got pregnant on my own. Doctor immediately started talking "options." D & C or pills to make me "abort." I'm waiting because I want to miscarry naturally but so far no bleeding or cramping. My heart is broken but I must have faith in God's perfect plan for hubby and I. I've felt every emotion you've gone through. I understand and I pray for healing for all who have experienced this type of loss ❀

  15. Hey sis ! Your so strong for even making this video. We love you so much . Keep your strength mighty and anxiety down . God has an amazing plan for you , us and everyone. You are so strong and something lured us to tour page. Go to blues relax and have him rub that neck of yours ❀

  16. Thinking of you!! Pregnancy is stressful in itself but pregnancy after miscarriage is even more stressful. It’s as if people in the Dr. Offices don’t get that and at times aren’t as compassionate. I haven’t had IVF but with all the emotions that goes in it and meds anxiety would have to be worse. I pray for you daily through your journey. πŸ™πŸ»β€οΈ

  17. Ms.T I know you need this alone time time but I have the urge to speak with you,whenever your ready to read this please consider, I'm not sure what your background is when it comes to calling on your fathe(GOD)but which every phone line you use he will answer,make sure your heart is purely on what you need or want from him,go to a sacred place and have a one on one,leave your phone home or turn it off and speak with,only he can grant you this,please for five me if you feel I'm coming on strong but I feel you need this to complete your FTC journey…you've tried on your own with the help of doctors and medicine, it can happen for you,in my heart and body I'm feeling this for you,much love to you and your remarkable outcome,be well MS.T

  18. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You are an incredibly strong woman. Sending you πŸ™ and ❀

  19. Anxiety is no joke when it comes to this stuff! I am praying for you Tanika!! I think about you often…if you ever need anything you know how to reach me!! Love to you❀️

  20. Praying for you and all that concerns you! Though it can't take the struggle away, (I wish I could) I do hope you see that the level of difficulty/annoyance constant reminders/stress etc due to all the questions, comments and emails etc is so great because your influence is too. I'm sorry that it's been so taxing! We miss our daily check in with you- I wish some people were better at listening and knew how not to say stupid things ha! I find myself looking into new options that feel like they might be right for me and that's because of your strength and influence, you've taken something very scary and made it approachable because we've watched you walk through it, not limp through it, but walk strongly through it and made us think maybe we could too… because of your journey new things Are being born. I'm praying for your 🌈 Rainbow and also that life's rain feels a little more refreshing and less like a storm. ❀️

  21. Keep God first. Even in the midst of things that don't seem to make sense , he is there. Look up and hold on. Be strong for AJ! I know what God can do. Do you?

  22. This was hard to watch.. brought up many familiar feelings so I know it was hard for you. I’m sorry, hoping better things are coming β™₯️

  23. Bonjour Tanika,
    Hope you are taking time for yourself, did not want to comment while you were waiting… but I have watched all the videos.
    You helped me a lot, vraiment, thank you for this strength and believe you have which gave an incredible energy and also healed me and helped me to move on and believe again.
    I hope and I m sure you will be strong and well soon.
    Sorry for my English, hope it makes sense.
    Take care

  24. Tanika girl we love u gf your Sprite is so beautiful I luv how u stay positive and u know we serve a very awesome god.let go and let let him enjoy this pregnancy and i ask God to keep u and AJ covered in his blood sis, I had spotting in the beginning of this pregnancy so I turned to my creator my savior and he covered us I'll be 12 weeks Sunday .much luv and support πŸ˜˜πŸ€—

  25. Sending you lots of hugs and love. You are strong to share every step of this journey with us. Also you are so professional and kind in your responses to people despite what you are going through. I am here for you whenever you need me but I am happy that you have loving, supportive people around you who are physically there for youπŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

  26. I miss you much, always looking forward to your videos. I hope you're well, I think about you every day.. Ur heart first but please post again soon. Also, can you please send me the links to your other YouTube channels. πŸ˜™

  27. Tanika, with Ronin, I bled the first 14weeks, But my cervix was shortened to 1cm and they did a cerclage plus Progesterone yellow gooshy yuck yuck lol But i carried him until 34weeks. Sooo it can happen ya know. Dont fret please until you know negative. Did you know that maternal stress can actually change the DNA structure in an unborn fetus. TRUTH , look it up. Hugs my beautiful friend. HUGS.

  28. Thanks for sharing!! Many blessings and prayers to you!! have no kids always thought I would be married with kids and that didn’t happen, now I am 44 and……well. I am looking into some things, changing diet , eating healthier, organic foods, no chemicals, detoxing, etc…..we will see..,,,

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