37 Replies to “IVF Journey | THIS is my biggest fear”

  1. “I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born “
    Isaiah 66:9 ❤️
    your rainbow is coming 🌈

  2. My story is slightly different but I thought I'd share it anyway. My Husband and I live in a small country town in NSW Australia, we got married almost 5 years go and about 6 months after our wedding we were expecting our fist baby. My pregnancy happened relatively quickly and I had no serious issues throughout my pregnancy – now we have a gorgeous almost 4 year old girl we named Isabella Grace. When Isabella was about 12-13 months old we thought we'd start trying again as it might take us another 6 months to fall pregnant and an 18 month gap between kids seemed pretty good to us. 6 months came and went and the pregnancy tests were repeatedly negative. After 12 months of trying we saw an OBGYN who suggested we keep trying for another 6 months and we'd probably be pregnant, unhappy with this answer our GP referred us to another OBGYN. The second OBGYN didn't waste time did blood test and other tests on us both then we started on clomid and pregnyl (trigger shot) treatment, 5 months of this treatment and we were finally pregnant (2 years after we first started trying) unfortunately this little baby wasn't meant to be and I miscarried the week I found out I was pregnant. We were devastated. I had a laproscopic procedure that same week which found some endometriosis. We continued with the same treatment of clomid and pregnyl until October 2018 then we were sent down the road to IVF and referred to a Reproductive Medicine clinic. We tried without treatment until February 2019 because this was the quickest we could get into see the new specialist. We went to our first appointment, had more blood tests and other tests and basically were waiting to begin the IVF process. Come the end of February I was feeling so fed up and emotional I had several weeks where I really struggled to deal with how long it was taking us to conceive and that all of the tests we had basically said there was no reason we couldn't conceive on our own. To make matters worse our lost babies due date was coming up and I had just found our that my sister in law (who had a 12 month old at the time) was pregnant. We were shattered and I really fell deep into myself and depression that week (which was also my birthday week). After all this I thought bugger it I've not been myself lately why don't I just take a pregnancy test. The day after our lost baby was due I took a pregnancy test expecting it to be like all the others I had taken over the last 3 years and what did it show A FREAKING POSITIVE RESULT!!!!! I was in such disbelief I just couldn't believe it. Until I have my baby in my arms I will always worry that this pregnancy will end the same as my second one that I will never hold a sibling for my daughter this is my biggest fear (so far so good though). Sorry for the really long post but I am currently almost 11 weeks with our so far perfectly healthy rainbow baby. I had given up all hope and was regretting starting IVF as well as looking forward to it at the same time. Keep your chin up Kelsie your story is so different to ours but hopefully it will show you that after everything you've been through make sure you and your hubby remain hopeful and positive that you will get your little miracle when the timing is right. Good luck with your IVF journey I will definitely be following your journey like I have been for the past few years <3

  3. I just discovered your reviews today for the Ava bracelet and I discovered Ovusense from you! I am praying for you today! I hope you get great news for your HSG test!

  4. I know what the wait and anxiety can do to you! I have PCOS and I had polyps remove through surgery and my tubes had to be unblocked in 2016… I was so ready to try IUI (after 3 years of TTC) but the clinics said NO… I had to wait 8 months cuz of Zika risks. I was devasteted and soooo scared the polyps would come back. My miracle baby will have 1yo in april. My payers are with you from Montreal, Canada. xxx

  5. I just binged through your videos. Going through a similar thing right now and thank you for sharing. Glad to feel not alone. Praying for you. 💖

  6. You are in my prayers! 🙏🏻 I started IVF and before I started, I was so anxious and stressed about what’s gonna happen and if it’s going to work or not (self paying). I just had to learn to let go of control and surrender. I realized that me being worried and stressed is not going to change the outcome. I hope you can find peace and I wish you the best of luck with your journey.

  7. Awww honey praying for you. That anxiety is real. Sending positive vibes to you and your uterus! Love this raw video. Looking forward to an update.

  8. We were due to start IVF last month. I have a history of polyps and I had a feeling that they had come back. Like you I was worried about the IVF being delayed, we have been waiting since October to start so we really didnt want to wait any more! I got the clinic to move my SIS forward and surprise surprise, polyps were back! I'm so happy I got my SIS moved forward because I had to wait 6 weeks for my hysteroscopy, which timed perfectly to start IVF on my next cycle. I have now started my down regulation injections!

    If you're worried about the results, I definitely recommend trying to move forward the procedure. Then you can either have peace of mind, or a less time to wait to start IVF! We will be keeping our fingers crossed for you 🤞🏻🤞🏻

  9. I'm sorry you are going through this! Praying for perfect report!! I had a hard time when i got diagnosed with pcos. Im 30 and im trying to conceive! A Friend recommended Mexico to carry on my treatment. We found our clinic through the website www.ivfinmexico.com. I'm hopeful that 2019 will be the biggest year for us

  10. Oh, sweet girl. I get it, I get it. The HURRY UP AND WAIT of infertility sucks so terribly, and it's so unfair. Will be sending you all our love and prayers for good results! xoxo

  11. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. It’s so unfair. Nobody should have to work so hard to get a baby. Praying for you. ❤️

  12. I have pcos since 18 years old. It was diagnosed through ultrasound showing many eggs that got stuck on my ovary and through blood test. For many years I have question about this “disease” that affects one in 10 women but I found out it is more of a condition than a disease. You could be symptoms depending your lifestyle, diet, health. I have never been cleared of the symptoms but I did ovulate on my own for the last 15 years( every 45 days) I rejected birth control pills to regular against dr suggestion and I also rejected metformin and clomid cos it makes me sick.

    I just wanna share with you that I hope your sonogram would turn out to be great, but don’t worry too much if you could ovulate on your own, having normal period( not much pain weird color blood clots) then you should be fine.

    I was so worried before for my fertility with God grace I conceived one year without any inference ( or any calculation on ovu date and stuff, pure natural) and I am currently pregnant with my second

    Just wanna give some hope for those who also suffered from pcos and ttc

    Last but not the least I figure out my perfect diet and weight for my pcos condition that helps me ovulate more regularly( for those who’s looking for alternative diet and weight control is very effective to me and my other friends who are suffering with pcos )


  13. I will being sending prayers everyday to you girl! Keep your chin up girl! You got this! You will get through this! Hugs!

  14. Praying for a strong and supportive uterus. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst. We all love ya girl.

  15. Prayers for you, you are a warrior you got this. I am currently 14 weeks pregnant with our IVF twins. It’s been one of the hardest journeys to walk through after 4 miscarriages, 2 years of fertility treatments, and a very very difficult pregnancy this far BUT we made it here and are so thankful. I pray that you are next!!

  16. First off, I just want to say thank you soo much for all your posts, they keep me positive on our journey of infertility. Today I am getting the saline guided ultrasound and I am really nervous as well. I am sending you lots of positive thoughts, keep strong and can’t wait to see more of your posts 😊

  17. Don’t work yourself up over something you don’t know yet. You may be perfectly fine and your worrying yourself for nothing girl. Deal with it if that time comes

  18. I just want to give you a big hug!!! 12 years of infertility due to pcos, I was blessed to conceived twice naturally. 1st pregnancy, strong heartbeat at 7 weeks and no heartbeat at 12 weeks scan, baby passed and stopped growing at 9weeks😢😭. I cried everyday after and 8 months later found out I was pregnant again, had my rainbow baby boy 12/16/18. Good luck!🍀❤️

  19. Sending you some positive vibes. We spent 8 years ttc, the waiting game is hard but don't get upset things will fall into place and it's great that your doctor's want to check everything is perfect before going ahead, where I am they were quick to take our money and put us through treatment without knowing the extent of the issues.

  20. Positive vibes and prayers. Go in with a good thoughts. I can’t imagine what you’re feeling.
    You look great though. You have a glow about you. Put this part in the hands of the lord! You’ll get through it.

  21. I remember all those same feels. Oh man, sending you lots of love! You got this!! 💗Prayers for a beautiful looking uterus and ovaries and for a perfect IVF cycle!

  22. Oh Kelsie. I knew what you were going to say before I even pressed play. Trust me, I get that fear. I just had my lap/hyst/cyst last Thursday to remove my asherman’s and a little endo (to my surprise.) It’s been a painful recovery. Thank God for the On-W pain pump. I also have a balloon stent for 2 weeks plus 3wks of estrogen and 1 wk of provera. It certainly puts a damper o TTC plans. I will most definitely keep you in my prayers for a clean, perfect, hospitable uterus for your future take home baby. 🙏🏻🤞🏻🙌🏻🤗

  23. Oh girl, I know it's so hard but do not stress over results you haven't been given yet!! Prayerfully everything looks GREAT after the SHG and that your uterus is in perfect shape for IVF! Speak it out loud and just give all your stress and worries and anxiety over it to Jesus. I know it can be so much easier said than done. Will be praying for you!! I can't believe you're getting so close to IVF!

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